Doom!

Why is it that every year around my birthday, I get an impending sense of doom? Why is it that things inevitably start to go wrong for me about this time?

Something needs to give. I need to get a higher paying job so that I can pay off my outstanding debts. I need to get a job that I actually feel like I'm doing what I've been training myself to do. I need something that gives me hope that my wife and I can make it on our own, and that will get us out of her parents' home and on our own again. Something needs to come along and give us hope again, especially in this time near my birthday...